its not fun living in my mind,
i know i need sleep to survive.
thoughts collide, like a car crash
nightmares postponed cant relax
lack of sleep, leads to lack of self-confidence,
doubting my own competence,
stumbling on every sentence,
mentally screaming someone end this.
im falling apart inside myself,
cant stand and nobody can help
i still pretend that i fine,
even though im literally lying
counting the hours,
staring at the ceiling,
every second
drags out the feeling
my skin feels like a curse
i drown in an idea, worse
thoughts sprint into my mind,
scared they’ll step on the landmine
questions bleed, but answers hide,
lost in a maze I feel confined
im in a mental asylum
held hostage w/no reason
insomnia or my addiction
a crime as bad as treason
dying is one temptation
trying to not press the button
but continues in delusion
time that i am losing
i fear im an illusion
regret, my brain is in jeopardy
sleeps the way to reach clarity
i feel my own eyes rotting
the clock looks at me mocking
i stare at it with free will
sun comes up and i feel ill
too late to take NyQuil
my thoughts come in like overkill
lack of sleep, leads to lack of self-confidence,
doubting my own competence,
stumbling on every sentence,
mentally screaming someone end this
battling shadows with empty fists,
wondering if i even exist
im falling apart in silence,
monsters stir within my mind
im in a mental asylum
no escape but only time
held hostage w/no reason
counting the seconds, staring at the ceiling,
drowning in this feeling
silence sounds like screeching voices,
echoes of regret, drowning in the noises
im over it
10/26/2024
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