lost in-between

i tiptoed through nights

hiding in plain sight

nothing i did seemed to be right,

taking on words that’d hold me too tight.

shielding the pain from each of their sides

biting my tongue, i never wanted fights.

the stress buried deep beneath my throat

my brain was assessing each word that i spoke

acclimating to both of their needs

unaware that they planted seeds

rooted inside of my temporal lobe

all of their pain i swallowed it whole

the air felt like a thin tight rope

holding my breath sometimes id choke

fuck i never felt so alone,

suffocating inside my bones

each thought that id think

told me to leave

their voices would scream

id get lost in-between

tiptoeing every night

living for them

i thought it was right

now paying the price

knew it be out of sight

soon it’d all be nice

just a small fragment of my life

hurting but break through the strife

now im slicing it all open with a knife

finally settling, enjoying my life.

im over it

01/25/2025