i keep a muzzle on,
locked in a prison inside my mouth,
my teeth, i show none
im afraid they’ll all fallout.
thoughts that cant be spoken,
they scream in each of my veins.
im biting my tongue
till it starts to bleed,
ive got a muzzle on me,
its like i don’t like to breathe.
clasped behind my head,
the things that will never be said.
straps are aligned behind my ears,
cant hear anything but my own fears.
i swallow each word,
my mouth fully covered
lips stay still, entirely smothered
everything, smells like discomfort.
the weight on my face
the words i can’t taste
my body feels betrayed,
my essence; a waste.
strapped in, like cement,
eyes that scream regret,
muzzle stays, mouth supressed
only wishing to be undressed.
the thoughts i eat,
the secrets i keep
the words i wont speak
the silence is screamed
the muzzle is strapped
tongue and teeth are trapped.
if the buckle breaks...
scared the silent sound shatters
each tooth will try to release my tongue,
but before the words spill out like venom,
my mind will sew the straps tighter
every knot stronger than the last one—
because it fears the taste of freedom
more than the pain i make myself take
muting my thoughts for what i wont sake.
im over it
12/30/2024
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