ripped out all my vocal cords, now im muted
i wish you had just gotten me executed
you gave me things i never deserved
anxiety, pain, and your twisted words
suffocating when you’re in the room
your presence feels like a living tomb
you say im a burden,
that im too much
but then you drink poison
and say im not enough
when in reality you’re the one you didn’t love
you wish i was never born
its you that i had to mourn
you come with gasoline, spark in hand
watch me burn wherever i had to stand
took out my voice; leave me no sound
you hate me, but you built my ground
you light the fire, then walk away
im left to pick up the ruins day after day
you gave me pain i didn’t need
a brain that makes me fucking bleed
i get claustrophobic when you’re around
my sanity is lost its nowhere to be found
i crave the void, but still, i fight
the pain feels wrong, but you tell me its right
this isn’t a plea for help; it’s a call for peace
take this sick joke and grant me release
butterflies turned into knives
inside my rib cage
how do i survive
when you wont change
they say it takes time to be wise
but im at an older age
living it all over twice
you must’ve skipped a page
at least ill thrive
while you’ll just grow deranged
thank god im almost out
im ready to feel sane
im over it
7/19/2018
6/21/2024
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