its hard to fall asleep without you
tired race car sounds from youtube
have it turned on to the loudest volume
she fell asleep writing that to you
still her heart races from the thought of you
in love with a manipulator who not once not even twice used her dads suicide to induce
abuse she let you use against her
is she the problem
two..? days later
showing up like shes the traitor
but she knew you were a manipulator
said shes wrong for her behavior
thats why you aimed a gun at her
disclaimer in denial you made her
doubt her moral
told her it was normal
and then she was mournful
because yes you aimed a gun at her head
repeated things her mother had said
she sends your dad the text thread
it read, you were going to be dead
you hung yourself, instead
hospitalized and then
two brain tumors to defend
the gun put to her, now they pretend
it never happened
like that excused the fact that you attacked
even just the act, you claim you blacked out
brain tumors now in doubt
but then still shout when she tries to make you take accountability
the instability has become a liability
claims disability
thin possibility
high brutality could’ve caused a fatality
really do we pity
quiet tricky says hes sick she
overlooked all his tricks…
i told her she was stupid
but its like she had me muted
was her brain too polluted?
was she now too wounded?
his convoluted explanations
said he’ll fly if theres still separation
that means no radiation, negotiation hospitalization, his manipulation, she feels an obligation,
im trying to reach communication
but shes only looking at the situation
with the indication of what happened with her dad
if he had someone like that
would he have passed
so despite being harrased
she feels attached thought she was intact i laughed she lacked the fact he could adapt
he snapped wrapped trapped
finally seeing the fact even after 85% of his brain mass back
how he would react, quietly packed realizing she was outmatched
i told her there was no match
she must detach
subtract and distract till theres no more mental head fuckery
please talk to me
im screaming set me free
finally make me a priority
she was not
we will not
i will not take pity
im over it
5/16/24
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